Life of jay

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 13:51:54 GMT

surgery went without a hitch. 2 weeks off and 30 percocets will do.

It's been a long time.

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 17:35:34 GMT

So im broke and i punched brianna in the leg for spilling salsa this morning. Our dog is good, and she has a friend for a few weeks. Charlie is a good dog. It's raining and gaming is consuming my life. Drinking has grown bland but i still force it down. It doesn't taste as good, like dirty drinking water. my shoes are wet and my head is broke. i saw dropkick murphys a few weeks ago, they were pretty good, didn't think punk rock music was still around. The bass player took us back stage after the show ( we were just trying to get our friend in line). It was a good time and rowdy. just the way i like it. I have a hernia and i have surgery on the 24th. Yes this is the first time in my life where i ask myself, "aren't 40 year old construction workers supposed to have those?" Brianna keeps interrupting me, i hate that the most, and my sister is still here. This is reason we are broke. i don't like to directly blame her because it's not her fault, but what am i supposed to do when my dad only sends her to europe with 63 dollars? Bullshit. I think that's all i have to say. I'm getting out in december. i think we want to spend christmas in arizona? i don't know, more discussion about that a little later in life. i think i'm going to start writing again, because i haven't and it's nice. Myspace sucks. It just sucks not as many people talk on here anymore. hm. maybe it doesn't. whatever. I want more music. i should play guitar more. but i don't have anyone to play with and stuff. it gets lonely strumming by myself and not knowing where to go, particularly i want to smoke some type of drug while i play too. i think it would enhance my enjoyment. I can hear all my mistakes. And it's hard to get music books that i want. I can't flip through the pages to see. I can just spend 7.99 on magazines and get music i don't want but try to play anyway. And my guitar has a rash on it. it pisses me off and my sister dropped my acoustic today and my head went up in flames. my strings come in this week. WELL over due. god. i'm looking forward to pain killers and it is like it's not summer over here. it rains constantly. *raising hands in anger at the sky* "fuck you clouds." I guess that's all i have to say. peace jay.

so it's fall.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 13:19:21 GMT

in germany september is sunnny. In october it is rainy.

I think today is becoming better than yesterday. Why is it on the weekdays, i get home and actually want to do alot of things and i say, "sheesh there just isn't enough time in the day." And then on the weekends, "im too tired, i don't feel like it." The weekend of course allowing more than enough time to do anything i want.

Saturday night was the night october first was being born. Loud thunder that would shake your teeth. The panes of glass would rattle your ears and make your spine crumble. It all sounded like an explosion.
lately i've been terrified of seeing a mushroom cloud climb from the horizon. i had a really vivid dream of a war breaking loose in this world. It was vivid enough to convince me that it was going to happen the following day.(after the dream) ever since i can't help but think about when it will happen. will it happen?

i'm going to take a shower and listen to some zeppelin that is led.

*the music is suiting.

my fingers hurt.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 16:18:17 GMT

so i brought my lunch today, brown baggin' as they say. and I placed the bag into the refrigerator in the morning. Later that afternoon a thief ate my lunch, i would assume because i don't think a person would just simply throw out a perfectly good meal. It had chips, bread and even a brownie to top. I was unexplainably pissed.

We played the fUTbOl today again. this is the record. We have played three times a week for the past 3 weeks. I think we're getting better. Tuff stuff. spread for me.

two minutes

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 15:23:46 GMT

i scared someone from the shop today. it was exciting and i thought i did a really good job, scaring him. today's weather has been obscure. drizzle to hot sun beating on skin.

oh shit i forgot the water is bubbling.

because i am hip

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 15:40:18 GMT

Man this fucking sucks. I had my wisdom teeth taken out almost a week ago, well a week ago tomorrow and they still hurt. shit man. i have to read 15 pages from text/write in my journal in the next 20 minutes. Come up with alternate cliches. bitches. i haven't had a cigarette in almost a week. i am soaring through the air bitches.

take my fuckin' word for it.

...and carrie the rage updates alot. shit.

Tung and quips.

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 16:13:21 GMT

my jaw feels like an oversized cannonball filling with helium. This weekend is a scattered dream with touches of reality. Darvocet and penicillin leave traces of pink coating in my brain tissue, with light scuffs of white. oh shit there goes my knee. Just go away pain. go away.

To much Floyd Rose

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 16:12:05 GMT

Today i got my wisdom teeth taken out. The played "shine on you crazy diamond" while i was under. i loved it. and now my face hurts and i have drugs. woo hoo.

RUN TO THE HILLS!!

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 11:10:33 GMT

yeah so im going to paris tonight and you know, so yeah. i'm waiting for my new strings. im done with my automotive class. Alright. the world is going to hell. so yeah you know that. let's rock.
eat my ass.

My arms are under a bridge

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 18:45:53 GMT

intense drinking this weekend. not nearly as much fun as last weekend although. i felt a bit drained. but i danced on a pole so all was well. i wish that i could have had more time to play guitar this weekend though. Plans fall through. i wish i had food in mah belly.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 15:17:10 GMT

All has come round', the trees are alive and the sun is burning my fucking flesh. I finished my papers and a great burden has been lifted off me.

My guitar is here and i can't wait for my amp. GIBSON. yes i just bought it for the name. stupid. stupid motherfucker.

pancho ate my nachos

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 07:37:21 GMT

i'm juggling two papers and now the opel has broken down. i'm dealing with this twat of a kid that makes me run him around and not offer for gas money. i have to move him into his place tomorrow. i want to see what is wrong with the car. my nose feels like it got punched and it finally rained last night. thank god. I love this song.

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 06:58:11 GMT

i had to drive to frankfurt yesterday and pick up the "new guy." he turned out to be a little better than i thought. new shrooming buddy. we went for some drinks last night, brianna and i, with zach.(that is his name)
i have to give my speech today, on what to look for when purchasing an acoustic guitar. i chose the topic because i thought it was fitting and i slightly have looked into the subject before. it should be rad. i should concentrate on that, instead of this.

check ya laaater..

oh sweet.

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 20:02:15 GMT

my les paul is on the way.

eat jack my axe

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 19:00:23 GMT

this fucking ebay scam. man let me tell you about it...

...alright i won't go into it. but i still don't have my jams. i botched my midterm for bible as literature. who says that the bible isn't simple? end of term i will be ready. dammit.

work was work. it's getting hotter and hotter out it seems. i want to swim. i should have went with reid today. we lost our game today anyway. fuck that softball shit man.

my dog pants but won't drink her crisp water. eat it.

man.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 17:25:00 GMT

stupid people that go on ebay. im so close to getting my guitar for cheap and this trashcan of a guy just won't stop topping me. it's over 675 now. fuck.

Crate

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 08:31:09 GMT

we got a new computer the other day and it's nice. im tired. i just woke up. today i have to go and get a loan for the cruise next year, and maybe brianna will let me ask for a little bit more money for a guitar and amp.i found this stooge on ebay selling his for under half the stock price. im going to help brianna walk dogs. it's been incredibly hot lately. it's nice, summer nights. barbeque outside. The cup is this weekend, we were thinking about going to berlin for it. but i don't think brianna wants to. but i will be celebrating this weekend, i hope germany takes italy tonight. we celebrated with the germans on friday. it was intense. i have my bible final on thursday. School.

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 15:18:29 GMT

Wolfmother.
dig it.

bold as love.

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 18:24:15 GMT

i got my new jimi hendrix cd today. blah blah blah. hid from my boss as long as i could today. blah blah blah. gave my impromtu speech today on...a map. it was interesting.

we just got our mattress today, long story short: it's taken us 9 months to get this BOXSPRING *correction_ and now...i can't get it up the stairs. fuck. so now im procrastination my speech i need to give on thursday. shit. instead im hanging out with heineken. incomplete sentences. oh and i think our computer is going to burn our house down. doh.

i think someone stole my identity.

blaheai

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 07:27:16 GMT

layla was on a sniffing quest this morning. two felines were right under her nose. they made the escape at just the right time. stuck in the tunnel beneath the road. it's another rain day. yesterday was beautiful, the sun was out. im making a steak for breakfast. i start class today and i have a game tonight. it should be a fun-filled day. i won't see brianna for more than an hour or two.

against me

Thu, 18 May 2006 18:19:44 GMT

today i fixed weed wacker motors. it was interesting and enjoyable. it rained this morning and i wacked plants in the misty stuff. it felt comfortable. i ate at subway today, and the lady that made my sandwich, before she began to ask me what i wanted on it, sneezed and coughed into her hand. i reluctantly ate it anyway, i was hungry. it sucked because i walked outside and this guy was selling hot steak sandwiches with onions and shit on them for like 3,00. i was pissed. it turned out to be a good day, the sun came out and said hello. i went to softball practice and it really blew ass. my hands hurt and i haven't worked on the car in two days. my ear itches and we just found a HUGE ant house up the road. it's incredibly huge. i want to pour gasoline on it. it's time like these i wish i had firecrackers and a bee bee gun. i want one for my birthday.

use a coaster

Sat, 13 May 2006 15:40:21 GMT

today i bought a stereo for the gah-ráge, so i will have music when i work. it rained today, i think the plants enjoyed it. my birthday is coming but i don't know what i want to do. i could go "out", but that results in a lot of money, or i could stay in and throw myself a party. like the germans do and buy all the beer. weak man.

i totally fucking sliced it.

Mon, 08 May 2006 16:20:43 GMT

true to the effect that i have many things to do. i have to touch base with reality and bite the nail. just put your fucking shoes on and walk straight man. you know? my head seems to keep spinning. i couldn't sleep last night, up for hours. well more like a hour but spinning. falling asleep seemed like such a task. cutting back on cigarettes has been difficult. i think i have, but as i notice the packs keep dissappearing (one s? fuck it) i realize i am just lying to myself. people will just ask me at random, "man, why are you breathing so hard." and i follow with becoming depressed about my habit. i haven't been able to drink as much lately. it just hasn't sounded enjoyable. i need to keep going with the mini. i've hit a brick. and keep fretting on the neck.

i can't wait to be done with this contract.

I have a list.

Sat, 06 May 2006 12:17:25 GMT

list of things to do today:

1. time the opel
2. do those dishes
3. get the tie rod ends off the mini along with steering knuckles
4. wash the dog
5. finish my coffee

time has came and went. i still feel like a foreigner to this life. we watched v for vendetta last night, it was pretty good. i wanted to see his face though. it wouldn't have made the movie any better but i think it's just a natural curiosity. i have no ambition right now. im ready for next semester to start. im excited for "the bible as literature: the old testament". love it. move on.

v is for vegatarian.

Wed, 03 May 2006 09:21:37 GMT

we finally returned to our home yesterday afternoon. almost two days of complete traveling. the trip, it made me realize how much i don't like the united states.